Photos from a week away!


I just got home after a four and a half hour drive and I thought I’d write a little blog post about where I’ve been and share some photos!

I spent the past week at Center Parcs in Longleat, where we go as a family each year.

It came at a really good time because it was my first real break since Christmas and I was starting to feel in desperate need of a break!

I love the quietness of being in the forest surrounded by nature and birdsong. There’s no pressure to do anything specific, you can take the day at your own pace and just enjoy being with the people you love.

We went swimming each day, it’s our favourite part about the holiday. There were some new water slides this time with some pretty big drops and fast turns. I’m not going to lie, I was a bit nervous about going on them because I’m not much of an adrenaline junkie, but I did find it fun!

Aside from swimming, we ate out a lot, played mini golf and went bowling. I lost at mini golf but I won both games of bowling, who knew I had a hidden talent?

The pancake house is my favourite place to eat and we ended up going three times in one week! They do savoury and sweet pancakes and I always go for the tuna pancake. It honestly sounds disgusting but it’s really nice!

Of course I also had some sweet pancakes and on one occasion I also had a delicious banana milkshake.

It was so nice to just get away from it all and have time to really relax.

I’m back home now and it’s back to reality. We’re hoping to go away again in a few months on a glamping trip. I’ve never been before and I’m really excited, I’m hoping to make a little vlog about it too.

That’s it for this blog, I hope you liked it!


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D.I.Y Mother’s Day!


Good morning, I hope you’re all having a good day so far! I’m spending my day getting everything ready for Mother’s Day and nervously waiting for a phone call from the vets.

Mother’s Day is now only a few days away, so this morning I headed to one of my favourite shops to try and get some inspiration.

There were loads of the usual gifts; candles, chocolates, flowers and skin-care pamper packages. Of course these are all lovely gifts, but I feel like they’re a bit too predictable. I like to put my own stamp on things and give my mum something a bit more personal.

I found this wooden key-hanger and some floral decoupage paper and ended up having a crafting morning. I also found these gorgeous little candle holders and decided I would give them a makeover too!

I started with the key hanger because I knew this would be the more difficult of the two. There are lots of corners and edges that could easily be missed and working around the hooks and the hanging string was a bit fiddly.

It took me about forty minutes which isn’t too bad. I forgot that I didn’t have any brushes so I had to use my finger instead – it got quite messy!

I’m really pleased with the final result. I’m not sure whether or not to add something else, maybe some letters along the top or some lace detailing round the edges.

It always amazes me how much difference a bit of colourful paper can make! My mum has just moved house and I can just see this hanging in the hallway or in the kitchen.

The candle holders were much easier because there were no edges or awkward areas. The two of them only took about half an hour.

I decided to use the same decoupage paper as I did on the key hanger instead of the purple one I had bought originally. I think it looks a lot lighter and when the candles are lit, it will be light enough to see the flame through the sides.

I’m really pleased with how they turned out, they look completely different and they’re one of a kind!

Altogether, making these items only cost me around £10 which is probably less than one of those pamper hampers!

What are your plans for Mother’s Day? Are you doing anything crafty?


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Good morning! Where I am, we’re still about 20cm deep in snow, so I’m going snowhere for the time being (get it?)

Sadly we didn’t plan ahead and do the obligatory rush to the shops for bread, milk and tinned food so our supplies are running pretty low. We’re now down to frozen chips and pasta!

But we are in high spirits and I’ve spent my morning cleaning, watching the cats trying to navigate their way through the snow and wondering when spring is actually going to make an appearance.

As I was watching the snow build up, I noticed that there were some snowflakes on the bench outside and on the window.

I can’t tell you how excited I was! I’ve never seen an actual snowflake in real life before. They’re so beautiful to look at and there’s something about them that just feels magical.

I wrapped up warm and headed outside to snap a few photos. Unfortunately I only have an iPhone camera so the focus and the zoom aren’t particularly strong, but you get the general idea! Hopefully one day I’ll be able to afford a good camera for moments like these!

The designs are so intricate and they stayed for a while before they melted away.

I think this one is my favourite because it’s a slightly different shape compared to the rest, and it was very small!

Is it snowing where you are? Keep warm!


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12 Months of Gratitude: February


Happy snow day! I should have been at work this afternoon but there was no way I was getting my car off the drive, let alone all the way to work!

So today I’ve enjoyed an unexpected lazy day! I’ve basically been sat at the window all day watching the snow falling and being amazed by how pretty it is.

We did venture out at one point to get some supplies from the corner store, and it was freezing! My nose and ears have never hurt so much!

My shoes didn’t look too good either!

Anyway, welcome back to the second gratitude diary entry in my ’12 Months of gratitude’ series. There were a few things that I felt particularly grateful for this month:

1) My car

Before I could drive, I used to take the bus to work. This meant getting up a lot earlier than I do now and standing in the cold (and usually the dark) waiting for the bus to turn up.

The freezing temperatures this month and the overload of snow and ice has made me so grateful that I can drive now. It’s so easy to take it for granted: you jump in the car and before you know it you’re at work.

Not only am I warmer because of it but I’m also safer. Coming home via bus at 9:30pm on a December evening didn’t feel very secure, especially since I had to walk through a park with no street lighting. It was pretty scary!

2) The seasons

I’m very grateful to live in the country that I live in because I love the four clear seasons.

If I lived somewhere that was warm year round or cold year round, I think I would get a bit bored. I love Winter, Spring, Summer and Autumn, and I look forward to all of them as they come.

Although this winter has definitely been snowier than I remember it being in the past few years!

3) Tom

This month, Tom’s health deteriorated and it really got me panicking. He’s still not out of the woods yet and we still haven’t got a solid diagnosis, but at least he is home and safe.

Having to mentally prepare myself for the possibility of having to say goodbye was extremely difficult and it has really made me so much more grateful for having him in my life.

Seriously, cuddle your pets tight!

That’s about it for this blog post, I hope you enjoyed it!

What have you been grateful for this February?


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Birthday Rambles


Today is my birthday, and that makes me 23 years old! I think this is an age that I would quite like to stay at for longer than a year.

I got quite a few presents, mainly clothes and cat-themed items (no surprise there, right?) and I absolutely love them all. My dad bought me these flowers, they’re beautiful, although I don’t know how long they will last before Lily knocks them over!

She has already had a good sniff of them!

Yesterday morning, the website shared one of my blog posts from a few months ago called ‘An argument with my eating disorder.’

I wrote it when I was feeling overwhelmed by my own thoughts and writing it all down made me feel a bit lighter.

I knew the post was going to be shared because they asked for my permission back in December. However, I still felt a bit vulnerable when they shared it because all of a sudden a lot of people were reading it!

I’ve had a read through some of the comments and I did get a bit teary, it really seems to have struck a chord with some people and I feel happy that it has helped a little bit.

Re-reading the post and going through how I used to talk to myself was hard. I can’t believe I used to deal with those thoughts day in, day out without completely losing my mind. But it does show me how far I’ve come and I have a lot to be proud of.

In other news, this week has been a difficult week for an unexpected reason. One of my cats, Tom, has been ill and I’ve been at the vets most days this week trying to get a diagnosis.

He has had multiple blood tests, a stool sample and an ultrasound scan but we’re still not sure what’s causing the problem. There were times when I expected the worst and I found it extremely difficult to work through.

He’s back home for the time being though and he’s getting lots of cuddles! I just hope we can get a solid diagnosis soon so we can start some treatment.

That’s about it for this blog post, sorry it’s a bit jumpy!



Recovered. Now what?


In my last blog post, I casually mentioned that I know feel recovered from my eating disorder, but I wanted to write a separate post to explain in a bit more detail.

I feel recovered because I no longer show behaviours associated with my old eating disorder, such as binging, purging and restricting. These behaviours didn’t just stop overnight, and it has taken years to get to where I am now.

Mentally, I’m also in a much better place. I’m no longer scared when it comes to eating, food is now my fuel, not my enemy. I see each mealtime as something to be enjoyed, not something to obsess about for the entire day. I’m learning to eat intuitively and really listen to my body. If I’m hungry, I eat, if I’m full, I stop.

Sometimes that means that I eat three meals a day, sometimes it means I eat four. Sometimes I eat foods that are high in nutritional value, other times I eat highly-processed food. Some days I only ever feel satisfied, other days I eat a bit more and feel really full. I’m learning how to listen to my body again and to allow myself to live through birthdays, holidays, meals out and social eating without restricting myself.

My relationship with my body has changed. When I look in the mirror, I no longer feel embarrassment, resentment and guilt. My reflection isn’t something that I need to fix. It just is. I’d be lying if I said that every time I see myself I think “wow! check me out!” but the important part is that I don’t hate myself anymore.

The tricky part is recovering from an eating disorder and then continuing to live in a society that’s full of diet culture and the obsession with thin. Where fatphobia is socially acceptable and no matter where you go, you’re bombarded with images of how you ‘should’ look. But I’m trying my best.

Recovering has been my main focus since I relapsed last summer, and now that I’ve finally done it, I’m not really sure what to do next! Everyone on social media seems to be obsessed with making goals, planning for something, achieving what you thought you never could and pushing yourself. There’s nothing wrong with that, but it does create a lot of pressure to constantly be working towards something or else you’re just wasting your life. It sucks when you’re not really sure what you want to do!

I suppose it wouldn’t hurt to be goal-less for a while. I’ve been working so hard on recovery for so long that maybe it’s time to just relax for a while. I need to take some time to settle into life without an eating disorder and just enjoy each day as it comes. Maybe then something will come along that will spark my interest.

I just want to thank anyone who has been reading my blog and following my recovery. I hope that I have helped someone along the way!


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Valentine’s Day + Recovery Update!


Happy Valentine’s Day! I have spent the majority of today eating takeaway pizza, watching Harry Potter and of course, spending time with Pal.

I hope you’ve also had a good day whether you’re single, in a relationship or busy working.

There’s a lot of pressure to make this day special, which can be pretty miserable if you’re single. But I think a bit of self-love and appreciating loved ones in your life can be a nice way to celebrate!


In other news, I’ve made some good progress in my life recently. I feel like I’ve pretty much recovered from my eating disorder, even if it does feel strange to type the words.

I haven’t shown any physical behaviours for months and mentally, I’m feeling much more comfortable in my own skin.

It’s a strange feeling but it’s very positive. It feels like I can finally start moving forwards in my life.

Which brings me on to my next bit of news..

I’ve started writing a novel!

I have always loved writing, and publishing a book has always been one of my big dreams in my life.

Last night, I spent three hours planning out the story, chapter by chapter and I’m really excited to start writing it.

My love of writing faded when I was ill for so many years, but the fact that it has come back in full force just shows me that I’m moving on from bulimia. I can’t wait to see what other passions resurface!

I would just like to say a big thank you to everyone who has followed my recovery journey on my blog since my relapse last summer. Your encouraging words and messages have been so lovely and I can’t thank you enough for supporting me.

I hope you’ll stick around to see whatever happens next!


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