Lunch Date!

I hope you’re all having a wonderful, relaxing Sunday. I’ve spent most of my day at the garden centre with my mum having a good nosey round and stopping for lunch.

Look how big this scone is! I couldn’t even manage it all!

After we had lunch in the sun, we went for a wander around the store. The place is really big and they do lots of gift items as well as traditional garden products. There were lots of stuffed toys this time, and I was tempted to buy the cat puppet!I also dragged my mum into the fish section to look at all the fish. Honestly, I work with fish every single day at work, yet I always enjoy looking at the displays anyway! 

We found many, many Nemo fish!

For the first time ever we also had a look at the outdoor displays, where all the outdoor furniture and flowers are kept. I’m not sure why we’ve never been out there before because there was plenty to see!
A lot of the displays around the store were set up using old crates:
 I really like the rustic feel of these. I’d like to make my own one day and use it at home to put pictures or plants in. I also really, really like these candles! Once we had finished shopping, we found some Peter Rabbit inspired chocolate packages on the till point, which my mum treated me to.That’s about it for this blog post, I hope you enjoyed it! Don’t forget to follow me on twitter @HollyRobiin for updates and cat pictures!


Book review: Body Positive Power by Megan Crabbe

I’ve never done a book review before, and to be honest I’m not really sure if this counts as one because it’s basically going to be me saying how amazing this book is! 

I bought this book because I’d seen Megan (aka bodyposipanda) online and I’d always wondered how she found peace with herself.

She writes in such a lovely way, with plenty of humour thrown in and lots of facts and statistics that I found really interesting (and eye-opening!) 

She writes about diet culture and debunks all the myths we all believe, she writes about her own recovery process from her eating disorder, she writes about how we’ve all been taught, unwillingly, to hate our own reflections and at the end she even includes a ‘what to do next’ section which I found very useful!

I thought it would be nice to share with you what I’ve learned from reading this book:

1) My body is good enough!

I should put that in bold with big sparkly letters and read it every single day until the message sinks in!

All my body does every single day is fight to keep me alive, and all I’ve been doing in return is ripping my reflection to pieces and ironing out my ‘flaws’

I’ve posted this photo before on my blog but it’s here again because it’s the most recent moment when I’ve felt so comfortable in my own skin, and I have every reason to be. 

2) My weight is the least interesting thing about me!

Which is probably why they don’t include ‘what weight are you?’ in personality questionnaires or job applications. 

Before we get to my weight, why not talk about my obsessive love of cats, my passion for writing, my sort-of-ok piano playing or my goal of learning sign language?

Why not ask me about the weird vibration thing I can do with my tongue or that time I volunteered with sea turtles? Ask me about my career goals and my quirks, my fashion choices and my pet peeves. If the only thing that interests you is my weight, then I’m sorry but it’s pretty boring information. 

3) We don’t exist to look attractive to others.

I challenged myself yesterday by going to work without any make-up. My skin was a bit dry so I thought it could do with a break anyway. 

But guess what? Nothing bad happened! Nobody looked at me funny or asked if I was feeling ok. 

All of the ‘flaws’, namely my freckles, rosy cheeks, fluffy hair and round face were on display and nobody, including myself towards the end, cared! 

4) More people need to read this

I went on and on about this book so much that my sister and my mum are now reading it (yay!). 

Both of them are beautiful, strong women and I really hope that this book shows them that. 

That’s about it for this blog post, I hope you liked it! Don’t forget to order or download the book and head over to Megan’s instagram/twitter for body positive and pink vibes!

My first therapy session + recovery update.

This was on the wall in the waiting room, one of my favourite quotes!
Today I had my first ever CBT session. I wasn’t as nervous about it as I thought I might be, which I think is because I’ve been doing better recently.

These past few weeks I’ve been feeling a LOT better. My eating habits have improved and my thoughts and feeling towards myself and my body are moving in the right direction. I felt a bit weird going into therapy and I explained to the therapist that I felt like I shouldn’t be there.

He reassured me that most of his clients say that to him, and that this type of therapy is usually for those who are already well on the road to recovery.

I haven’t had experiences of therapy before, and I thought it would be a case of me pouring out my innermost feelings and someone nodding and asking me how that makes me feel. Thankfully, it wasn’t like that, and he asked me lots of questions and we started looking forward and to what a recovered Holly would look like.

The session was really helpful and I really think that over the next 3 months I’m going to be able to tie up all of the loose ends and really get rid of my eating disorder and depression for good – yay!

Here are some points I learned from this session:
-I’m very psychologically minded, apparently, and it’s a good thing.
-I’m able to talk very openly about my life and my problems, even to a stranger.
-The cycle of thinking can be broken.
-Full recovery is definitely possible, and in reach.
-I know what triggers my disordered eating behaviours and thoughts.
-I now have a clearer picture of what recovery is for me.

I’ve been given some ‘homework’, where I have to fill in a chart that analyses my moods and thoughts/feelings in different situations. Hopefully it will give me a better idea of what I need to work on.

Recovery Update

As I said, I’m doing a lot better and I really feel like I’m heading in the right direction. I haven’t binged for a few weeks now and I can’t remember the last time I purged, it was months and months ago.

The problem I identified in my therapy session was the mismatch between my thoughts and feelings. In my head, I know that my body is fine as it is and that I’m worthy of love and happiness just as I am, but I don’t feel it yet, and that’s what I need to work on.

It’s like when you have an argument with someone and about halfway through, you realise that you’re wrong, but you can’t stop feeling angry. It’s frustrating, but it can be changed.

That’s about it for this blog, I hope you’re having a good day!

Journey to The Deep

Watch the YouTube video here.

Good evening, I hope you’re all having a good day! 

Today, I went to The Deep in Hull which, for those of you who don’t know, is an Aquarium. I’ve never been before but I’ve always heard great things about it, so me and Pal decided to go and check it out…

…and we weren’t disappointed! I really loved how the place was set out, starting from the beginning with ocean fossils then leading to each part of the sea and the animals that live there. 

The clownfish tank was one of my favourites, and every child there was shouting ‘Nemo!’ but it didn’t beat my all time favourite, the jellyfish

I could honestly watch jellyfish for hours. The way they move looks so magical and the lighting really showed their movements as they glided through the water.

Another interesting part of the trip was the frog displays. I’ve never seen frogs as part of an aquarium display before, so naturally I was really excited.

Their colours were so vibrant, and the little golden one was tiny, it was so adorable! 

Another great part was the penguin enclosure, where you could see them above the water as well as below it. Watching them diving, swimming, eating and grooming was really interesting. 

Near to the end of the displays was this tank, which unfortunately didn’t come out great in my photo.

The tank is filled with plastic bottles, discarded litter and garbage. There are no fish in this tank, and it’s there to show us what effect we have on the ocean through littering.

When I was looking at it, a child said  “There’s nothing in there!” and her mum responded with “Of course there isn’t, nothing can survive with that amount of rubbish, that’s why we need to be very careful.” I really hope that this message gets across, it’s definitely a smart way of showing it!

Overall I had a really good day out here and I would recommend it to anybody. There’s plenty to see and lots to read and take part in along the way. 


Bake Day!

Today, for the first time in months, I did some baking! Tomorrow is my sister’s boyfriend’s birthday, and I decided to bake him some ninja bread men.

I tried them for the first time a little while ago and they were really fun to make. 

This time I mixed things up a little bit by making three different colours: blue, red and green. 

I knew that once they were cooked, the colours would fade a lot, but the red colouring stuck quite well:

Of course, you can’t do baking without making some taster samples, especially when you’re baking for someone else!

They were really tasty and I’m happy with how they came out! 

That’s about it for this blog post, I hope you liked it! I made a little video about my bake day and you can check it out here.


Zakynthos Photo Album!

It has been three weeks since I came back from Zante, but I’ve only just got round to making my photo album!

When I was there, I found this little photo album in one of the gift shops and I loved it. I love the whole design of it with the leaves and the soft pages. 

I know that nowadays photos are stored on social media, phones and laptops, but I thought it would be nice to have a physical album to keep as a little souvenir! 

On the very first page I’ve attached my plane boarding passes for both journeys and my wrist band for the hotel. I like to keep hold of things like this, even though most people throw them away! 

The rest of the book is filled with some of my favourite pictures from the holiday. 

I printed them off on normal paper instead of photo paper, simply because I don’t have any and I’m too lazy to go out and get some!

But I really like how it looks. For some reason, I think glossy photos would have looked out of place in a rustic album.

I actually managed to fill the whole book, which actually really surprised me! I even had to give up a few photos near the end.

I can’t decide whether or not to leave it as it is or add some little captions? I really like how it looks but I think it will be nice to write little memories for each picture, what do you think?


Caturday Test!

Happy caturday from me, Lily and Molly! Technically every day is caturday in our house, but today I’ve decided to do a little test.

I’m spending some time going round my entire house and seeing exactly how many cat-related items I own! If it’s above twenty then I think I definitely qualify as a crazy cat lady.

Ready? Let’s go!

Let’s start with actual cat items: toy mice, a fluffy bed that they never ever sleep in and some cat shampoo that smells good enough to drink!
Next I have these cat house rules, and we all do our best to follow them!
Moving on to cat decorations! We have a lovely cat drawing, a cat light switch cover (I actually have more than one), a cuddly cat that sits on my desk and a cat door stop that also doubles as a cat toy sometimes!
Ok so these aren’t exactly on display, but I really wanted to include them anyway! A cat-shaped cello tape dispenser and one of my many cat books and cat pens!
Next up we have a few of my cat accessories including my favourite cat-face watch, cat handbag and purse and my cat keyring!
On to some more actual cat items now. They actually have four scratching posts around the house but one is looking pretty shabby and I forgot to photograph the other one!
Last but not least are my cat ornaments that are scattered around the house from the living room to my desk!

The results are in….

20 cat-related items were found during the search! Not quite enough to qualify as a crazy cat lady.

But wait!

I found an actual cat!

That brings my total to 21! I’m officially a crazy cat lady!